First of all have a HUG!
Talking therapy?
Daily Life can impact on our mood. But should the mood not lift then medical intervention is one option. I suffered with organic depression from 1988. I have a 22 months cyclic pattern in that when I take ADs the depression lifts, then I feel well so stop the medication: only for it to overtake me completely. There have been times when I have not been able to leave the bed due to anxiety, now that I take a low maintenance 5mg dose of AD night and morning, DH and I have a Life together.
It took several different drugs before I found 1 which I could tolerate as the side-effects can be dreadful. Sometimes GP s begin patients on the suggested starting dose which is TOO HIGH! also some ADs take 3-4 months before the patient begins to be aware of a lift in mood. I suddenly realised that I was feeling 'well' rather than struggling and YES - it can be a struggle. I am totally with you there! SUFFERING is not a word I use lightly for medical conditions but I did - struggle and suffer.
I remember my dog needed to go out for a pee and I crawled out of bed, down the stairs, along the hallway and into the room to open the French doors. I then slept on the floor until she came back in, when I crawled back upstairs.
I fought hard against medication because I needed to know what was causing the depression. I have both, clinical - which is determined by events that I am unable to alter - as well as organic, which is lack of serotonin and dopamine. So ADs do lift the depression enough for me to cope daily. If I find my brain (which is an organ often ignored
) is low for more than 3-5 mornings - my worst time - then I add 5/10 mg of AD daily. Until I begin to feel well again.
Anxiety is controlled with a nightly beta-blocka. If it floors me then my GP prescribes an emergency drug i.s. Valium-type. Knowing that this will ease the anxiety helps enormously.
Years ago we had community psychiatric nurses but I don't know if many Health Authorities now fund this system of support. MIND charity can be a place to contact too. But in the first instance, make a list of how you feel and go to your GP. Ask for a double appt., if possible taking someone with you as support and to listen.